Pre-op

Tomorrow is pre-op at Mercy. I'm so nervous. It's silly; I certainly can't control anything at this point. The issue we're concerned about (besides OPEN HEART SURGERY) is that she seems to have come down with a cold as of Friday. Geesh. The child has never been sick, and when we absolutely need her to be well, she gets sick. Maybe it's her way of telling us she's not ready for the surgery. Or maybe it's God's way of telling us we're not ready as a family. Either way, we'll just wait and see what the doctors say tomorrow. After all, that's really all we can do isn't it? Wait and see...

Changes

It's scary, the things you think and feel when you realize you have a child with a disability. I knew the minute I looked at Olivia that she had Down syndrome. I was scared and selfish. And I hoped beyond hope that I was wrong.
It didn't take long to realize that she was meant for us and we were meant for her. She has made me the person I am today. Seems strange that in just a few months of life, she has given me years of wisdom. I thought I was supposed to teach her? Hmmmm...
I would never wish the unexpected and seemingly bad upon anyone. But I will always wish for people to share the same view on life that I now posses. I feel so lucky to have been given this gift called perspective. Where before I saw trees, I now see trees with vibrant greens, birds flying overhead, blooms that breathe new life. Details. Importance. Love. Hope. Beauty. My family. Olivia.

18 Days

Olivia is due for open heart surgery on June 23rd. I've decided to keep a blog journaling her surgery and recovery...and also journaling our trials and feelings. Stay tuned!